Spring is a busy time for us because the winding down process here on campus tends to be filled with campus activities. Year end parties, dessert nights, banquets and graduation. I've been making lots of desserts lately and we have been able to host people quite a bit. I love it! Each year Easter usually falls somewhere in all of this and just like Christmas I find it difficult to stop and have time to think about what the holiday signifies. From years in church as a kid and now an adult, I know what Easter is about but I don't just want to know...I want the message of it to continue to change me and make me live with more passion and purpose.
This afternoon I sat down for a few minutes to send out a post before we head to the city for the weekend. Before I got here, I found the following video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=52kWPzQlw_A&feature=related
It is made up of scenes from
The Passion of the Christ set to the Newsboys rendition of
In Christ Alone. Warning...if you haven't seen the movie, please know that some of the video is quite graphic. As I watched it, I realized that I see Christ's sacrifice a little differently since becoming a mother. I realize a bit more how difficult it would have been for Mary to watch her son go through what he did. How difficult it would have been for God to sacrifice his son for the world. Not just people that would accept his love but for those that would deny him and never love him back.
I have been struggling lately with being real. Struggling with letting the message of Christ's sacrifice affect my life as a mother at home, as a wife, a friend...in every part of me. I want to get deeper with Christ but feel like I lack the energy and time to work at it. The other day while I was feeling overwhelmed with the task, a song popped into my head that I haven't heard in years. "Little by little every day / Little by little in every way / my Jesus is changing me ..." It's just a simple Sunday School song but it reminded me that I need to take steps, as little as they may be, and not just stand in one place worried about moving. I'm not sure if any of this blabbing makes any sense to you but thanks for being a sounding board either way.
I hope you have a great Easter!